What is love to me now?..

Hard. To not think about you.
Hard. To resist not missing you.
Hard. To fight back the images of your face re-surfacing in all my dreams.
Hard. To not tear after I wake up in the morning.
Hard. To not be control by every thought of you.
Hard. To be an optimist about everything right now.
Hard. To not relate everything I do to you.
Hard. To prevent the memories from swallowing me.
Hard. To not cry when something reminds me of you.
Hard. To sustain the heart.
Hard. To move on.
Hard. To avoid trying to get you.. b..

No matter how much I try, it feels like I can't get you out of my head.. seems like insanity is drawing near me at times.. But you see. I finally realise that you are my remedy. Because the more I think about you, the more I realise. I can't keep chasing something that will never be mine.. Or maybe was never mine to begin with.

Hmm..