God damn, god damn

I was the man who took a chance when it wasn't safe..

And that was how we celebrated the enlisting Wang boys to army. More over at Facebook.

The fool I was. How silly was I to ever listen to every word you said. Stupid liar. Why?.. Why did you have me wrapped around you then do this to me? Why make my world revolve around only you and then turn it to a catastrophe? Was this three months even anything to you?.. Was I even something to you?..

I need a distraction, badly. Something to pump my adrenaline and cause the pain, the agony to flow away.. To make me stop poundering about misery.. or even getting you back.. -stupid, stupid me to think about that- To make me stop being afraid to sleep.. in case the dreams I dream start to have you in them.. I refuse to stay in denial any longer, or continue to be a vapid person. Time To Get On With Life.